- No Control -

I find myself so wildly angry

for still being hungry for you
having to constantly
remind my own mind
that you did so much more
than just betray me
but completely slayed
a faux masterpiece you created
I find myself commiserating
how much time I spend hating
that I'm still missing you
and wishing you were here
to celebrate my wins or pick me up
when the winds knock me down again
I'd cut out parts of myself
with a knife forged in lies
just to keep the idea of you alive
instead of the shattered pieces of us
those scattered shards surrounding me
eviscerating the dream
that kept me grounded for too long

- Catharsis -

When I first met you

we talked about the rain
and the threads of color
the clouds cry out after
the thunder fades
but after years of binding
my hands together in supplication
becoming a device of submission
to those who use my mind and body
like a crown crafted just for them
I lose you every time
lost to the sea of callous self-indulgence
my words becoming profoundly silent
when freedom comes from the sound
of pen and paper releasing me

- Ladylike -

What makes a woman

is not the waves of her hair
or the sway of her hips
but the fire in her stare

The height of her heels
is not what makes a lady real
it's not the smell of her perfume
but how she makes you feel

A woman is so much more
then the way she paints her face
the quality of her heart
is where she shows her grace

- Never Settle -

Part of me will

Always wonder how much
Time was spent settling for
Inadequate when I deserve
Extraordinary love
Never again will I
Consider anything less than
Exceptional

- Fragile -

Sometimes I find myself

missing the idea of
what I thought we were
your farcical whimsy
masquerading as romance
a brick house of trust
built on the bed of a river
whose rapids pulled me under.